Hi everyone,

Well... I've just returned from the hospital, yet again. It's 12:00am. My T
increased around 8:30 tonight and soon after that, it increased again, then
stabbing chest pains. These chest pains occur in the matter of a snap of a
finger, but after a while my chest begins to ache and I feel like someone is
stepping on my chest. There are times when my chest pulls in and I can't
breath very well. This is only for a second or two. They did the routine
tests, blood pressure, listen, and an EKG while I'm going through this and
everything is fine. While I'm in the hospital, the pressure in my ears
increases to the point of pain in a matter of thirty seconds or so. And then
it subsides a bit, and then it happens again. The doctor tells me he can't
treat the meniere's. The chest pains are due to myoclonic jerks. The doctor
tells me he can't treat that either.

The T is constant, but is always changing. There is the T in the center and
each ear has it's own. There are times when the T abruptly stops and there
is no sound, but it begins in a matter of seconds at a low frequency and
slowly builds up to it's normal high pitched "chirping crickets". When it
stops like this, it takes my breath away and scares me. I can't stop
noticing this constant ever changing T. My ears have ruined my life because
I don't know what is happening to me and what is causing it. These attacks
always begin with an increase in T though. And then the muscle jerks, and
then the dizzies, and then the pressure in my ears and then the pain in my
ears.

When I try to go to sleep, my T is very loud and changing like a Morse code.
There is a certain T that is stopping and starting very quickly that is
mixed in with the rest. I've tried a radio and other sounds to mask my T,
but if I hear a change in the sound from the radio at the right (wrong) time
just as I'm about to fall asleep, it causes my T to increase so loud and
fast, it sounds like an explosion and basically wakes me up for another
hour. It stuns me. This can happen once a night, or many times until it's
time to get up. There is a myoclonic jerk each time too. It used to be the
muscles in my lower back that would violently contract within the snap of a
finger, but it has now settled in my chest for the past year.

When I eat, the volume/frequency increases when I bite down on food and
chew. There are times when I stop eating because it just gets to be too
much. I don't like to eat when there is no background noise. Even that
doesn't help anymore because my T is so loud that "it" masks out speech or
sounds from the room like the TV, the air conditioner and the fans in my
computer. Ha... the fans in my computer. One of my fans makes a certain low
frequency hum that I don't normally hear. When I'm having one of these
attacks, I can hear it. It was scaring the heck out of me during these
attacks because it was different. And then during an attack I noticed that
when I moved my head by turning around, the noise went away. The sudden
changes in my hearing scares me when I hear something that I can't
distinguish between my T and normal noises.

I've been telling this to doctors for years as my T has been with me since
1994. No one has listened to me. My ears are driving me crazy. My balance is
shot too.

I had a decent job at one time, even was granted a patent for a machine that
I designed the electronics for. There was a time when I was exploding with
creativity in the design of electronic control systems. Now I don't leave
the house.

I know some of this is off topic, but my T is ruining my life along with the
other problems.

I really needed to blow off this steam and hope it's appropriate for this
group.

Thanks,

Ken McDonald