I had leukemia about three years ago and as recovery was progressing,
I
became plagued with suicidal thoughts, after seven days, I gave in and
saw my MD, he started me off on effexor and within three days my whole
world was rosy,  But after about six months, I realized I had
competely lost interest in sex, I am 55yo single guy, excellant health
and had not experienced a night time erection in
months.  Research indicated I needed to get off the SSRI
serotonin boosters and get on wellbutrin 300mg a day.  Was dating in
two months
and my interst was back for female companionship.

Six months ago, I began having problems with anxiety, anger,
irritability
and my Dock gave out Buspar, a mild anti-anxiety drug, 30mg a day.
Nothing improved after ten days and I put them away.  Began counseling
and that
worked somewhat, but spent what seemed like a lot of money, and still
having this feeling inside that I am likened to a jetliner fueled up
and
cannot get clearance for take off.  Well that is diagnosed as anxiety
and my dock started me on 10mg lexapro, down to 150mg wellbutrin time
release once a day.  All is very wonderful for about three weeks and
the anxiety came back
with a vengeance, suicidal thoughts galore.  Dock say get off lexapro
and take this buspar, 45mg a day.  After three days, all seems great,
but after three weeks anxiety is back, and that is where I am.
I understand that lexapro increases serotonin, and buspar takes it
down.
I know those two drugs keep me on a yoyo affect.
I am seeking a badly needed opinion on what to do now, as I am lost,
and I think
my dock is lost as well as to what needs to be done. Any thoughts
would be well received, thank you for any help.
regards
david