I was 19 when this madness started, I had kidneys (my kidneys were so
painful) and  liver complications ,I also had painful arthritis,
leaking gut, blood problems, intestinal bleeding, stomach ulcers,
Candida infection, sinus infection, stomach infection, swollen lymph
glands specially in my neck (this are so painful)  so I gave up , I
didn't want to do anything , I didnt want to take any more drugs, I
didn't want to eat, I just wanted to rest and be in peace, but bro i
had so many dreams,  I still have them and I still think I am going to
accomplish them. So after days of eating a small meal just one time a
day and drinking maybe some water I thought I was going to die, but my
frustration made me feel so mad. I was mad with my body , I was mad
with the doctors, I was mad with people that don't understand how sad
and  how painful is this, I was envious of healthy people of my age, of
my friends, of my family.  So I used all that energy to fight against
all this , I hated my body, i hated how my body made me feel so sick so
depressed and so helpless, I refused to be depressed(I assumed
depression was a symptom) and I was refusing to feel sick. This was not
easy but i was so mad even though i had such a high fever , my brain
was fuzzy and my eyes were blurry, I was refusing it , I refused to
die, I refused to give up my dreams , I refused to lose against
whatever this is :MS , fibromyalgia, wegeners, etc. My parents
contacted a guy from a Christian church (he was a priest) to talked to
me about god since I was going to die. I went to his place every other
day. I wasn't felling well but i went there. He did so much for me,
He thought me about god in a different way (these people have a unique
way of talking about god; they understand that we are in this life to
serve our creators, they have different kind of ambitions for their
lives). He had a friend that did holistic medicine to me, he was also a
chiropractor, He did all that for free, I went there every other day.
It took 2 weeks to see improvement; I felt my body was less heavy. If I
was going to die I was going to do it feeling better or at least in
peace. I didn't die though, I might not be cured but I think you are
going to have to read my bad English for at least 40 years more HEHE.

Everyday I pray god I feel better the next day, everyday I pray for
those who suffer, for those who are in hell and feel their body is
falling in pieces, for them to give them hope I am alive and I am not
going to die, everyday I will look for a ray of light till i get cured.
I am fighting and I am going to win.

I want you to know that i stopped the drugs cause I was gonna die
anyways and I felt very bad and intoxicated .My liver had serious
complications So there was no point to stick on all those drugs
cocktails and injections , I was gonna die , there was really no point
.

I am with you. I've been there, and i got worst with time. , my body
was out of control and drugs stopped working, but when everything. is
lost there is always a way, there is always a light giving hope. That
light is god, Share with him your frustrations , he will do something ,
he will get you somewhere, he will get you close to the right people ,
to the right doctors, to the right friends.  Never give up my friend,
never give up even if it is because you feel frustrated, insult your
disease, refuse it, and fight it.  No dejes que se apague la luz de tu
vida.

God blesses all of you

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My prayers are with you. Get close to God and God will get close to you.

Jason

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