I want to thank you all for sharing and helping me understand this
thing we all have.  I have just started feeling some of the side
effects this Lupus has on people.  All the doctors have told me so far
is I am starting Lupus, but I am not full blown SLE  YET.. he says..
gee thanks dr. for the wonderful positive notes..  :)

I go see the rheumatologists this Friday for the first time with notes
and lab work in hand.  

I guess its getting to me finally that I am sick, today at work I
actually had to take a nap on my lunch break. I have never felt so out
of whack for better words, all this resting is hard for me to do.  At
first I just ignored it and now its letting me know it is in control.
I love reading your messages and they help me cope with all this new
changes my body is making with out my permission.

I wrote messages on here under Veronica because my husband would read
this to try and understand what I am going through and I finally
realized how wonderfully lucky I am to have someone who is trying to
understand before I even do.  *say prayers for him he needs all the
help he can get trying to keep me under control, I am a bit .. umm..
bullheaded  *smiles*

My real name is also Rhonda and please email or write back here to me
as I do read and will reply more now that I am finally starting to
accept, but not willingly doing so.  

Thank you all for your words of support and your rantings, they help
me realize that others really do understand what I am going through.

Katerina_98  aka Rhonda Z