Doctor took a swab of what seemed to her was only in-grown hair and the test
came back positive.  A day later about 3-4 blisters appeared around the same
spot (the swab test from that came back negative).

This first outbreak seems relatively mild (externally).  I only have a few
blisters and for some reason swollen/itchy anus but no blisters down that
part - or maybe I just don't see them?  The most painful thing was during
urination which went away after 5 days.  I'm hoping that if this is the
worst outbreak since it is the first, then my recurrent ones won't be so
bad.

I cried when the doctor told me that it is most likely herpes but now I'm
all cool with it.  I don't feel as dirty as I used to feel.  I mean, I still
have that little bit of regret for sleeping with a guy without condom but I
can't go around kicking myself about it for the rest of my life.  I still
wish it was "only" Chlamydia though but the test came back negative for that
std.

This won't help my almost non-existent sex life though.  I hardly ever sleep
around (up until last month, last time I had sex was this time last year)
but I guess misfortune has struck me this time.  Still thankful that it
wasn't HIV.

It's a new chapter in my life from now onwards.