I had sex with a woman I did not know well almost a couple weeks ago.
Last night I noticed strange sensations from my penis, looked carefully
I and I notice small red bumps on the head of my penis.   They are
sensitive it rubbed (esp if saliva contact).  Now today I have a bit of
an over all burny sensation on the head, tip of penis also seems to
have strange feelings.

I am terrified, last night I got almost no sleep.  I know I havn't been
tested but so far everything seems to fit herpes.  I feel like my life
is over.  How will I ever get married now?

No offense to others, but I can't imagine living a 'normal' life if
this is indeed herpes.  At least not a normal dating life.  How would I
ever date?  What if I become seriously involved with someone?  Marrage?
Children???

I had had very very few sexual partners, and in fact this woman was the
second one I had been with.   I was (thought) very safe, but seems to
have not mattered.  I have feeling very depressed and suicidal.   I
know I won't take my life, but at the same time my life feels like it
is gone.  I feel I don't have much to live for since I had always been
a big fan of the marriage relationship.

To make matters worse I have always been prone to depression.   I don't
see how I am going to get through life.  I feel desprate, I don't know
why I posted here.. I don't know if I could tell anyone, I feel
soooooooooo bad.  

-K