It sounds like you have been suffering terribly from your ex-husband's
betrayal and the fact that you have an STD.  I DON'T want to make light
of it.  I just want to ask you to look at this from another point of
view.  Imagine a place where the fact that you have HPV is just no big
deal.  You have it -- so what?  Some men may mind, some won't.  For
some reason, I have been incredibly lucky in that no man ever minded
when I told him I had herpes.  That should show you that there are men
out there who don't care.  I have friends who have had HPV. I never got
that myself, but I can remember what they told me about it.  Just like
my friends with herpes (and some have both HPV and herpes), this didn't
stop them.  My very best friend who has herpes got HPV when she was
about 18 or so and she is 36 now, married to a great guy and she has a
gorgeous baby.  See?  That's what happens to women with HPV and herpes
-- they get gorgeous husbands, kids, houses (her house is beautiful)
and cool careers.  So, you know she's out there and you know it's more
than possible -- good things happen to people with STDs.  I know this
isn't easy for you, but it's not like you have been diagnosed God
forbid with a disease like Lou Gehrigs disease.  This is just something
you have to live with and it's not as big a burden as many other things
in this world.  Don't hate yourself.  Don't be ashamed.  Just say, aw
f.ck I've got something to deal with BUT remember you can see, hear,
walk, talk and do everything you could before. It's just a pain and
that's all it is.  Keep up with your doctor visits and other than that,
forget about it.  Honey, I'll bet lots of your friends have STDs and
you just don't know.  Heck -- my doctor has herpes.  Who cares?  Try
thinking about it that way and good luck to you.

Have you thought about talking to a professional? Have you thought about
checking to see if maybe an antidepressant might help? Are there any support
groups in  your area?

No, not if you don't want to be.

You should always be honest and upfront with potential partners about your
std status. And you should also be sure that you continue to protect
yourself by discussing stds. You know your status but do you know their
status?

Perhaps this will help:
http://www.yoshi2me.com/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=9

You can also try talking to others about this in our little HPV forum here:
http://www.yoshi2me.com/phpbb/viewforum.php?f=14

Hope this helps,

Angela :)

contact dr. christopher scipio who has posted a message on this board.
he is a naturopath in canada with a holistic protocol and a sliding
scale and a cyber clinic.  i've emailed with him and he's great.  it's
the post with the poem about herpes.  (feb. 7)  his sites are at the
bottom.
lots of luck to you.   i'm a newbie.  :)
ps  also a fantastic natural health website for nutritional support
which will support your immune system and emotions is www.mercola.com
best,
p