Hi all....long time no se...

Well it surly feels like years since i visited you all, feels so
strange and so unreal, surreal, geting back, not that the dragon
haunts me anymore, he´s dead,  but just being here, reading and seeing
the familiar posts and names, strange....seems so strange? my history
is so unreal, everything I whent through, all the medication, every
treatement, all the questions......all the fear, all the pain. The
disolving of my person......shaterd......and now whole.

Still Im happy you are out there helping, comforting, answering, but
at the same time......I feel sad, you know why.... still, Im happy,
and you know why. Im in so much dept....for everything you gave, all
the answers, all the fellowship and comfort.

Im riding my life now, Im back on track, I do believe im
allright......I guess I am, so my doc says anyway. It´s been months
now......or has it been years? Distant memorys of clouded
agony...twisted mind...hard fighting...not giving up, all seem so hard
to place in time.

I feel so helpless, not beeing able to help now when it´s over....what
can I do? When I slayed the dragon and I moved along, reality catched
up on me, looking back is so strange, and somehow.....unnecessary and
unreal, but I know......so important.

You are my heroes, still fighting, and struggling...finding your way,
and helping each other. I know you will make it, you will if you want,
and you do want, don´t you?

I guess I will stay in touch, touch, so impotant.......thanx

Do stay in touch, h00hbt-- you're one of the heroes now.
When I was on tx, it kept my sanity to dance here with others in the same
battle, but the posts that really made me keep on keeping on were the ones
from those who won the battle and came back to cheer us on.

Hi all....long time no se...
(...)
Well it surly feels like years since i visited you all,
I feel so helpless, not beeing able to help now when it´s over....what
can I do? When I slayed the dragon and I moved along, reality catched
up on me, looking back is so strange, and somehow.....unnecessary and
unreal, but I know......so important.

You are my heroes, still fighting, and struggling...finding your way,
and helping each other. I know you will make it, you will if you want,
and you do want, don´t you?

I guess I will stay in touch, touch, so impotant.......thanx
.....................................
Hi h00hbt
 Well what you can do is tell me how to convince my cat that it is better
to go out in the freezing cold blowing snow and find a place to do his BM
than rummage around the house like a haunted paranoid, until he is
ultimately forced to soil in the kitten's litter box.  That is the real
world for me, a sicko still.  Minute by minute.  Share a story, a bright
story, a story about eating three plates of oysters, maybe about you
colouring the last page of the phone book.  What was the picture?

All the best, friend.  A large number of people in this world look at life
as though it was a series of sufferings.  From one minute to the next,
anticipating the next, and feeling inadequate about the one just passed.
But carry on, practice your prattle, make people happy.

cactus jammies