Hang in there, remember one day at a time. You're on the downhill slope
now. It's been almost two years since I ended my last round of tx and
I'm still wondering if my brain will ever return to normal (every one
around me is wondering as well). Good luck.

Dwight

Hi Mags!  What can I say to reassure you except  that I know what you are
experiencing, and that your brain will return to normal. I know you can
finish tx because I did.  Imho, full dose combo tx is much harder for
women than men simply because of the amount of physical strength required
to endure a full year of chemical abuse.  So this is where you rely on
sheer grit, baby.

During tx my brain was so scrambled I was certain that I had lost my
marbles forever. I lost my ability to read paragraphs in the newspaper and
I couldn't understand the evening news or generate ordinary conversation at
a grocery store.

I got better.  During my recent trip to Portland I tested myself by
dragging myself out into unfamiliar environments and chatting with
strangers.  It went fine. My verbal and listening skills were as good as
ever, maybe better, because I paid more attention. I discovered that I
still think humans in general are a shallow and boring lot. I appreciate
them more though :-)  I know you are too tired now, but when but when you
get nearer the end of tx I will call you on the telly a few times, hear
you out, and tell you about how it was for me, and you will know that I am
telling the truth.  It will help you recover.  Honest. I have a new Verizon
cell phone with tons of international minutes.  So hang in there, brave
cookie.  Then end is in site.  Keep in touch via the snickerdoodle
channel, okay?

kj

Hey Mags hang in there chickee. ...This part can suck. .....Been there,
done that and it still sucked. Your brain will fix itself later. It's a
long haul and you need not be worrying about anything but getting
there. I can dig on kj's comment about strength. I do believe it was
endurance and persisstance that got me through....and a needle and
thread so I could sit and still feel something of a human while I
stitched. There was no way I was pushing a cart but i could do the
smallest of things a step at a time and got some things done that I
thought would take more strength...I decided it came down to
persistance.

anyway chin up :)
(hug)
Mary Ann