It's 3:30 and the Prednisone is showing it's ugly face again. <<SIGH>> (No
sleepy time for me)

I'd thought I'd drop a note and let some of you know that I've dropped my
gruesome chronicles of myself and decided to accentuate the positive. Let me
tell you that this is no easy task for me.

I was given some very tough, but positive feedback, from elmo and ghibelno.
My problem manifested itself from my deep terror of relapsing again. My
first tx relapse was such a blow that I never really recovered. So when I
started this tx my chronicles were going to be used as a way of saying
"SEE!!! Damn it! I endured and suffered and the tx failed! It wasn't my
fault!"

Gosh. I failed even before I had begun. This was truly a bitter pill to
swallow. It took days for me to face the truth of that.

The gruesome slideshow of my weekly shots has been taken down and the site,
pictures, and anything else erased.

I took Friday off from work and spent the day dusting off all the things
that I like to do. I have an extensive flighsimulator cockpit that I'm
building under the stairs. There are a few pictures here:

http://www.puckertoe.com/Gallery/Friends/tabid/109/Default.aspx

I dusted it off, got it going, and plan to use it more often. I'm actively
engaged again in certifications in my field of work. (Computers). I've begun
to revisit my chores around the house. All these things were brought back
into the light for clear and plain focus. I'm just grateful this was pointed
out to me early in the tx.

To any of the new people, or new tx people, I want to apologize for being so
negative about this. Sides like mine are pretty rare. Most people handle the
tx quite well.

Enough sweetness for now. I'm sure in a couple hours I'll be back bitching
about aches and pains again.

(What the...? Now where the hell did that sore come from?)  :-)

-Puckertoe