Hey David,

Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better.
Your decision to go for the anti-depressants is the right one. Treatment is
hard enough, and if it's possible to make it a tad easier, well... go for
it!
Good luck, and please let us know how you're doing. Okay? Thanks!

Waterspider

Hey David.  Thanks for checking back in.  I got confused for a minute there
(so unlike me :) It's great to hear from someone else who's wrapping up tx.
I think it helps the folks who are just starting.

I'm kind of a geek about antidepressant meds.  If you feel like it, I'd
like to hear what your doc prescribes for you and how it works?  I have
found that although they say that prozac, zoloft, lexapro etc take a few
weeks to kick in, they start working for me much sooner.  

Later then,
Kathy

Glad everything is ok, David.  Do us all a big favor and become a regular in
here, will ya?

And hey--Prozac rules!

I was going to respond earlier but looked like you were in good hands.
My vote would be to run, don't walk to your BCLD and get those anti-d's.

Don't f.ck with suicide thoughts. Don't even try to just "tough it out".

Plus, you're on week 39 dude! I WISH I were there! Jeesh!

David,
  I'm sorry to read how difficult it is for you right now. I'm glad
you are feeling a bit better this evening. You truly did good for
yourself today by posting how you felt. I had a few rough times during
tx and there was always someone online. The BS lately is just that. I'm
glad you got past it.

You are coming to shot 39, that's great! you are almost there. The anti
d's will be a good idea.
It is good to use the tools and know they are available when you need
them. If you start them soon they will work soon. The treatment drugs
really can wear us out. Emotionally, mentally and physically.

(((hugs)))
Mary Ann

Glad you're in a better space.

While you're waiting for the anti-d to start working, something I
noticed is that if I allowed my thoughts to turn inward too much that I
could spiral into areas that were bleaker than they should have been.  
When I could distract myself to turn my thoughts outward I could reverse
that spiral.  

You might also have more energy than you think.  Get out of bed, take a
shower, go for a short walk.  You might think you feel too crappy to do
it but I found that often I felt a lot crappier than I really was
physically.  I could actually plod along quite nicely as long as I
didn't attempt any big bursts.

Laying in bed concentrating on how miserable you are (and trust me, I
spent plenty of time there) sometimes responds best to getting out of
bed and doing _anything_ else.

And sometimes, as you found, just being able to put out there how bad
you feel makes it a little better.  Keep us updated on how you're doing.

Gordo