I started TX yesterday! Last night I was so sick and weak I was wailing and
crying.
This morning I feel a little better, but not much. I cannot seem to think
properly.
My head is banging to beat the band. It's times like this I feel so alone.
What I wouldn't do for a jamba juice and a joint. I'm going to spend the day
in bed I think.
Thank god it is raining today here on Oahu.
Next Tuesday I go back in for blood tests again. I thought I was prepared,
but this is more than I bargained for.
Yesterday and all night it felt as if every joint in my body was on fire. I
fell down a couple of times before I got into bed.
I take many pills every day anyway just to stay alive as it is. If I can
keep these all straight it will be a miracle.
God I hurt so much. Sorry for sounding like a wimp. Well it is my fault for
making foolish decisions in my youth.
If I survive this..I'll survive anything. God bless you folks who are far
along in your TX and those who have completed it.
What do they say in those 12 step groups, take one day at a time, or one
hour , or even a minute.
Because of my size I must use .83 cc of medicine and even when I had my wits
about me, it was a hassle to
mix and inject the stuff. God I hope I feel better soon. Last night I
thought if I lived any closer to the ocean, (I'm
a 1/2 mile away now) what I thought of was striping myself nude, tying some
steaks on a belt around my waist, and
going swimming where I know there is some hungry predators. But I will not,
I will not give those little virus buggies
the satisfaction. Well, it is too difficult to sit here at my desk now and
type. I will sleep now....
Before it was only an intellectual curiosity, now it is so very real..
If there any of you out there on Oahu. If so, I would love hear from you.
  Thanx,

      John A. Sbordone (It rhymes with macaroni)

p.s. thank goodness for spell checkers  :)

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