hi dona,

i brooded a long while over your post. today i had my latest seizure.
it helped me find out, what i think about the subject matter.

odd thing. it works the other way around with me (the change in meds
made me be behave and and feel back normal, for the most part. thus, i
*guess* the following to be a "normal" pattern for my case, though i'm
not sure). it starts with a *positive* build up. you know the feeling
when you're so full of energy, that you don't know where to put it?
when your head is so full of ideas, that you have problems to catch
them? well, that's me.
then, out from nowhere, a seizure comes and ends this "phase". for a
while the energy turns into, hmm ... aggression, i become quite moody.
i defnitly do not feel better. it's more, that i'm angry because "the
ride" is over.
after a day or two, the "build-up" slowly starts again - and i enjoy
it :-).
tension is the one thing both cases have in common. maybe this is some
sort of affective trigger? maybe epilepsy searches its way to ease the
tension?
dunno.
this whole thing is something i didn't realise before - that may be,
because i never thought about it. anyone think i should mention this
to my doc?

so long,
Raist