The dietician told me part of my control problem was skipping meals which
caused liver dumps.  Although she might be right, it seemed my numbers were
going lower when I did skip a meal. I thought this had to do with my slowed
digestion but with no camera in my tummy, all we can do is guess.

I told her I just wasn't hungry and she suggested a liquid meal like
Glucerna because it was lactose free.  She didn't seem to understand that it
still had milk in it and I am allergic to milk, and not just lactose.  I
have not found any liquid meal replacements that are free of my allergens
and frankly I've never been able to gag down a liquid meal.  People have
suggested green smoothies to me but I think they are too high in carbs and I
am not sure I would be able to drink them or that they would stay down
because they still have fiber in them.  These usually have some sort of soft
fruit base like banana and then assorted green vegetables blended into them.

I've never liked tomato juice or V-8.  Never much liked fruit juice and she
said that wasn't a good meal replacement anyway because of the fast acting
carbs.  I did rather like the Diet V-8 Splash, (some flavors anyway) but I'm
not sure that is even being made and if it is, it's hard to find here.  Plus
I don't think it would have enough carbs to count as a meal replacement.
I've thought of things like soup, but even tomato soup is hard for me to get
down if I am just not hungry.  She also suggested crackers but I've never
really much liked them.  I had looked at a box of Triscuits because they are
one I did used to like on occasion, but they have trans-fats in them.  I did
once buy a box of Rosemary flavored ones with no trans-fats but they were so
nasty they went straight in the trash. I do have some sea salt crackers that
I like with hummus but if I am not hungry I can't bring myself to eat those.

Once again I see myself setting up for failure.  I managed to eat lunch
today, 1/2 of a peanut butter sandwich, but I ate it about a 1/2 an hour
later than I was supposed to.  I kept putting it off because I didn't want
to eat it. I am supposed to space my meals out ever 4 to 5 hours apart.  So
now I feel stuffed and like I wish I hadn't eaten that.  And yet I am
supposed to eat again in a couple of hours.  This isn't going to happen
because I have to take Angela to dance class.  I feel like I should bring a
small snack there just in case.  I woke up with much lower numbers this
morning after upping the lantus to 14 units and I don't want to risk a hypo.
But then I will have to eat a meal when I get back and I probably won't feel
like doing it.

*sigh*  I remember the days when I seemed to be constantly hungry.  All I
did was think about food.  And now it has come down to this.  Most days
there is not a single meal that I want to eat.