Hi all, just thought i would pop in with an update. John very weak and
sleepy HB levels 7. So John having another transfusion of 3 units of blood.
The cancer has ravaged his bone marrow and causing the low blood counts. He
had 4 units 8 weeks ago when his HB was 6.5 and it perked him up a bit.
Johns PSA is 1800 (yes... one thousand eight hundred!) he has facial muscle
weakness down one side of his face caused by bone mets in the base of his
skull, he is also quite confused and says odd random things his memory is
also very bad, he forgets everything. The Doctors say he might start to
have fits because of the raised pressure in his brain so he is to start
steroids tomorrow to see if they help. Johns weight is now 120lbs 2 years
ago he was a strapping biker, its gut renching to see such a good and true
man fade away in front of you.
John's pain control is very good the morphine sulphate he has in a syringe
driver 24hrs a day is brilliant. John also has a drug called Nozinan to stop
sickness.
John still has a good sense of humour and is always my loving husband. His
courage is amazing and the docs are dumbfounded as to how he is keeping
going. They gave him weeks to live months ago and the stubborn bugger is
still here!
Well i must be gone, things to do!
Take care and keep fighting
Love
Carolyn, John Preston
xxx
J - 25 Aug 2007 01:05 GMT
> Hi all, just thought i would pop in with an update. John very weak and
> sleepy HB levels 7. So John having another transfusion of 3 units of blood.
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> going. They gave him weeks to live months ago and the stubborn bugger is
> still here!
Sounds like John's being well cared for. Are the MacMillan Nurses helping out?
The steroid should help the brain pressure but may make him hungrier and
difficulty sleeping.
A "wired" jitteriness sometimes happens I think
My thoughts will be wiith you both, Carolyn.
You're also welcome on alt.support.cancer.
Alayne, from UK, whose husband died around the same age as John of a brain
tumor, might be watching for posts such as yours. She's a wonderful soft place
to land (for support).
J
chasjac too - 25 Aug 2007 02:52 GMT
Hello, Carolyn:
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and John. This is by far the toughest
road he has ever traveled, and it must be a comfort to him to know that he
has you at hand to help him through it.
--charlie

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6/2006 PSA 5.2, DRE suspicious
7/2006 Biopsy: 2 of 10 positive, Gleason 7(3+4)
11/2006 LRP: Clear margins
PSA < 0.01 on 1/2007, 3/2007, 6/2007
so far, so good ...
Steve Kramer - 25 Aug 2007 17:09 GMT
> John still has a good sense of humour and is always my loving husband. His
> courage is amazing and the docs are dumbfounded as to how he is keeping
> going. They gave him weeks to live months ago and the stubborn bugger is
> still here!
As always, Carolyn, our prayers are with him... and you.
My dad was the same way. He was a former Marine Sergeant in the Korean War,
then a cop. He was tough as nails. He was diagnosed in '74 at 42 years of
age. He was given "about 5 years". Seven years later, he was given six
months. A year later he was given weeks. Months later he was given days.
Three times I was called to the hospice when he had "less than 20 minutes".
The first time, we all gathered round and talked to him. By then he had
been in a comma for days. His breathing got shallow; then there were
minutes before each breath, then he stopped. Quiet sobs started, then
louder sobs, the crying. Then, suddenly, his right hand and leg jumped up,
fell back to the bed, and he started breathing again. Three days later, he
finally died.
Something Kubula Ross (or some such sounding name) says that when person is
in that state, he probably feels he has to stick around for all concerned.
That we who love them have to tell them, "it's okay to go. I'm going to be
okay."
I'm not saying that it's time now, but you might want to think about it when
they say he's got 20 minutes left. I wish I had.

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PSA 16 10/17/2000 @ 46
Biopsy 11/01/2000 G7 (3+4), T2c
RRP 12/15/2000 G7 (3+4), T3cN0M0 Neg margins
PSA <.1 <.1 <.1 .27 .37 .75 PSAD 0.19 years
EBRT 05-07/2002 @ 47
PSA .34 .22 .15 .21 .32 PSAD .056 years
Lupron 07/03 (1 mo) 8/03 and every 4 months there after
PSA .07 .05 .06 .09 .08 .132 .145 PSAD 1.4 years
Casodex added daily 07/06
PSA <0.04, <0.05, <0.04 (06/12/2007)
Non Illegitimi Carborundum
Steve Kramer - 25 Aug 2007 22:06 GMT
> Something Kubula Ross (or some such sounding name) says that when person
> is in that state, he probably feels he has to stick around for all
> concerned. That we who love them have to tell them, "it's okay to go. I'm
> going to be okay."
Just some background. The author's name is Elizabeth Kubler Ross and her
best book (per my wife) is Wheel of Life.
invicta - 27 Aug 2007 18:35 GMT
Dear Carolyn
I read this with great sadness. My thoughts and prayers are with you
both at this difficult time. Words are inadequate to express how you
must be feeling.
> Hi all, just thought i would pop in with an update. John very weak and
> sleepy HB levels 7. So John having another transfusion of 3 units of blood.
[quoted text clipped - 23 lines]
> Carolyn, John Preston
> xxx
Dave P - 27 Aug 2007 19:11 GMT
God Bless You Carolyn..........and John
My prayers are with you
Dave P