Yesterday at 10:00 am. The radiologist told him that the pain would peak at
excruitiating around day 3. That should be right about the time he is
getting ready to kill bambi.

He came from his appointment Monday with liquid morphine, 1cc per hour as
needed for pain. Plus Celebrex and  his Fentanyl, vicodin.  The doctor
wanted to hospitalize him but Curt refused.

I brought him over here to watch him that night. He seems more energetic
since he got the morphine. He asked about a port and they said "that is
hospice" and he said no way.

I noticed a burn on his stomach from a cigarette. He knows I saw it but I
didn't bother to say anything. I am learning to not respond to everything
that he says/does.

Sam leaves for Hazelden's youth program Nov 8th for 28 days. that is going
to complicate my working nights. I don't feel safe leaving Trenton sleeping
in the same building as Curt without me there to respond to any possible
fire.

OW. hanging in there. doing good. Still powerless of others actions, but
aren't we all. : )

Lori