Live in pain, live in fear,
What do I do if the end is near?

Well that is the question we all ask. There are many lurkers no doubt. They
lurk, some of them, because they suspect cancer yet don't go to the doctor
to see if there is a way to definitely rule out that it is or definitely
prove it actually IS.

So what do you do?

Well, given that a prostate is a male organ and the normal response to going
to a doctor by most males, my bet is the invisible people here do nothing
much like myself.

The only question that you invisible people REALLY need to answer is not
whether you have cancer or not but whether you honest-to-God want to live or
not. Answer it to yourself and don't stuff around. Be honest.

If you decided you DO want to live, piss the hell off Internet right now and
start ringing your doctor and don't bother reading any further. Any doctor
will tell you that with ANY cancer, the sooner it is found, the better off
for you. Don't wait till it is too late and live a few months thinking what
you SHOULD have done. Just bloody DO it and stop stuffing about!

If you decided you don't care if you live or don't WANT to live then stop
reading this now and stop worrying about cancer. Just enjoy the rest of your
life which may turn out to be long and may not.

Either way, stop worrying the hell about cancer because if you go to the
doctor because you want to LIVE, you will soon know and soon have a plan of
what to do if you have it. If you don't have it, you wont be here any
longer, no doubt.
Even if you decided you don't care one way or another, then MEAN it. Get on
with life and stop worrying.

My personal way of handling the unknown of cancer - if I have it I will live
or die with it. I have living family I don't talk to nor care about and have
a wife and dogs I love and care about. I also have a lot of loved ones dead
who I sorely miss. Long ago I decided not to be afraid of death and I am so
damned tired every single day of my life that I look forward to the day that
will be my last. It is unusual, I know but I am not going to lose sleep over
if I have cancer or not any longer. I am not going to worry if tomorrow is
my last day. There are worse ways to die.

Now I lay me down to sleep.....if only!