Hello

I wanted to thank all of you who responded to my post about my mom's
illness. After I dried off my eyes I was able to type this and say thanks
for your thoughts and ideas. I feel I finally found a place where others
understand what it like to live with this kind of reality.

Sorry for posting this way. I should have posted to my original thread
but My reader is messed up for some reason and won't post that way.

Also, for those who have been through cancer and it's effects on the sick
and those who they leave behind, please voice your opinions about
assissted suicide for the terminally ill. Why is our society so against
this? What are we afraid of?

I understand that doctors take an oath to heal, not to kill. But where do
we draw the line in our thinking? In their time of dying we give more
dignity and relieve from pain to our animals than we do for our loved
ones.

Recently, I had to call my Mom's doctor and "beg" him to reduce her pain.
I remember thinking that he is in it for the money. As long as her heart
beats, the jerk gets paid. This might sound gruff, but you would have to
meet him.

Yes, I am in the angry stage now...... Helpless. What else do you do feel
when your Mom asks to die?

To answer the question, yes my mom is now in a nursing (not hospice) home
3000 miles from me. I go there once a month or so and see less of her
everytime. The last time was the worst. After that she seemed to get
somewhat better. She called me out of the blue (nurse Dailed) one late
night crying. She was both sweet and pissed at the same time. Thats a
switch for her, because before all this she was the sweetest. Again she
asked "how much longer"?

That was the last time she could call...

OK. I vented now. I quess I'll take a Xannax and sleep. Tommorow is
another day of missery for us all.

John