I don't know what to do.  I want so much to be in Ruth's life, but I don't
want her to have any anxiety about that.  I know she needs every ounce of
energy now, and all of it should be towards her health.  Me going around her
if she doesn't want it can't be helping her if she gets upset.

Today I went and bought her some flowers.  I had seen her outside walking
around, and I too was outside, and she said nothing to me.  I was going to
wait and see if she would speak to me, but she didn't.  So against my
husband's advice I went out and bought her some of my favorite flowers.  I
took them down to her house, and just told her I was thinking about her, and
wanted to do something.

An hour later I left to go to the grocery store.  There out in her garbage
can, near the road, I saw the flowers I had bought for her.  Still in the
plastic wrap, and I could still see the car attached, like it had not been
opened.  It hurt, but I know she is the one who is sick and not I, so I'm
left with what to do now.

Should I keep trying, or should I leave her be?  I just don't know.  I want
to be around her as long as I can.  But, I don't think she wants that
anymore.

Thanks ya'll for any advice,
Sharon