Please Don't Let A Life of Youth Vanish In The  Darkness of Despair!

 I am a chronic hepatitis C sufferer, male, at the age of 23, Chinese.
 I had been suffering from it for several years without knowing the
truth, thus I didn?t get any proper and normal remedy at all until the
year 2002. When I was 21 that year, the condition of my health, which
stayed unsound more than 8 years (I used to be given the diagnosis of
suffering from chronic gastritis, chronic cholecystitis), began to
collapse, the index of liver-function-tests indicated constantly abnormal
liver enzyme levels. Finally, the HCV-IgG & HCV-RNA blood test both showed
(+) (January, 2003). It?s impossible and insignificant to ascertain how I
was infected when I was a kid.
   As a medical college student, I immediately resorted to combination
therapy of IFN and Ribavirin. But unfortunately, ( Doctors pointed out the
main reason was that the ordinary type of IFN was not effectual at all.)
after suffering the terribly devastating side-reactions for more than 16
months , I hadn?t been cured---two months after the end of the period of
treatment, the HCV-RNA blood test indicated positive again( viral load
test: 2.7*1,000,000 copies/ml)the liver-function test showed abnormal
liver enzyme levels. And I felt more terrible, catching cold more
frequently .Queasiness, indigestion, fatigue, insomnia, liver-ache,
rib-ache were getting more severe. I am only 51kg in weight with the
stature of 1.75meters now.
   I had been determined to be a righteous and prominent doctor after
witnessing my mother's tragic but avoidable death, I pledged my honor that
I would try my best to fight against illness and charlatanism. Although
tortured by the persecution of the severe disease, I have managed to
accomplish my college study as a Clinic Medicine Bachelor, and past the
entrance examination to going on my study for master degree of clinical
medicine. However, the lethal virus has now almost exhausted my strength
for living, devoured the color of youth in me. I have made every endeavor
to alleviate the pain, but the malady shows no sigh of stopping
deteriorating, my body is getting more and more feeble and incapable.
Simultaneously, as soon as knowing that I have the infectious disease,
people estrange themselves from me in spite of my scientifically medical
explanation. Even my good friends and kin have become quite sensitive and
aloof. This adds to my agony, and I do feel outcast and abandoned, but I
must struggle for survival. In day time, I brace my seriously
dysfunctional body, studying, working, undergoing discrimination and
misapprehension, fighting for my inalienable right. In the choking dark of
the sleepless night, I pray that I wouldn't end as another Gregor Samsa for
deep inside of my soul, I still believe in goodness. Somehow, I am only of
flesh and bone, just like Tracy Chapman crooned "..I can't hide, I can't
fly, I am struggling with the limits of this ordinary life...", the
difference is that "ordinary" is taken place by "disappearing ". As the
Chinese old saying goes," Even a tiny ant has invincible desire for
living", I have no more extravagant hopes than regain my health that lost
long time ago.

   I think we all know how fatal the disease is, as I am a sufferer with
obvious symptoms and signs, not only a virus-carrier. But the treatment
and of that year has cost all the money that I saved from scholarship,
earned from part-time jobs and lent from my brother. The PEG-INTRON-IFN is
nowadays the sole medicine which has a high possibility to maintain a long
or even life-long viral clearance for sufferer like me. However, in China,
PEG-IFN (importation) costs about 2,800 Chinese Yuan per injection, 50
injections for one period of treatment will consume approximately 140,000
Yuan, almost 18,000 US dollar, which is a tremendous amount of money for
me who now have no penny to my name, and the banks refuse to provide a
loan to me for I don't have mortgage of house property or something like
that. Thus, the world is about to close in on me as the inexorable malady
keep on aggravating , I've got NO choice but seek financial help or the
supply of PEG-IFN injections world widely.  
 
   
   Please endow me the opportunity for surviving, assist me to reignite
the almost extinguished flame within a young man's body. Give me a helping
hand to build a miracle so that I will and am able to dedicate all my life
to building welfare for others who suffer the same as possible as I can.
The tribulation has caused immeasurable and irreversible damage to a
individual, my feelings resonates with what Imre Kertesz described in
FATELESS?? I can say for certain that nothing is more awkward, more
discouraging than noticing day after day, keeping day after day, of how we
have rotten away??I couldn't tolerate waiting until it's too late, how can
a youngster bears when thinking that he'll lying on bed like a breathing
corpus with ascites, varices,  encephalopathy, and wretched changes in
body caused by increasing of estrogen someday, losing all his dignity and
mien for being a man. Then leave the world with no achievement, all dreams
shattered. Now I am racing with time, as no one knows when the cirrhosis of
liver or live cancer would fall on me. The PEG-IFN(combination with
Ribavirin) is unanimously and cosmopolitanly considered as the only
medicine that could sustains at least 4-year HCV clearance for 99%
patients who's viral load keep(-) after the treatment. It's my lifeline,
my last hope as far as the up-to-date medicine. We exist on the same
planet, share the same religion called human love, please bestow me your
kindness, save an unacquainted sufferer who will cherish your beneficent
salvation with infinite appreciation eternally; and I would surely return
you all your philanthropic deeds once I am back on my feet again; Save a
future doctor, letting him fulfill his worthiness and merit of being alive
to save more viral disease sufferers.

(If you would like to communicate with me to know more, offer some
help---supply of PEG-IFN injections or financial support, or introduce
other medical organizations which are able and willing to offer some help,
or any  authoritative clinical trials which need volunteers
internationally.
Please connect me: E-mail:SXSLHF2004@YAHOO.COM.CN)

I am looking forward  eagerly to your reply. Thank you very much!
Best wishes!
                                                                         
your sincere
                                                                         
Felix Hahn