Hello Linda,

The web site for widows looks quite good - it just seems such a shame that
there are so many of us!!  I didn't look at it for too long though because
it can be quite upsetting and these days I try hard not to let the girls see
my tears any more.

Painting and decorating makes excellent therapy don't you think?  I find
that the distraction and activity works wonders, although now I have
virtually finished I'll have to look around for another project, that's
probably why I am considering moving!! (as if I haven't had enough stress in
my life!)

I am hoping that it is a good week-end Linda, although it sure is going to
feel strange without Tony.  Although I am going with my friends most of them
are in pairs and I have had to practice the art of putting the tent up and
packing my bike up on my own.  It is also one of the few rallies that Tony
managed to attend last year so there are bound to be a few lurking memories
there too.  But I do feel that if we don't start doing some things on our
own then we will never get over doing them for the first time alone.

I know where you are coming from about wanting Dave Linda, they sure made a
mighty hole in our lives and I think that it will take me a long long time
to even want to try and fill that hole as I was with Tony for over half my
lifetime.

But life goes on regardless and we have a lot of memories to help us
through.

Congratulations on your first grandchild - a boy/girl?  My two daughters are
growing so fast it amazes me.

Take good care of yourself Linda and know that you are not alone (I for one,
am here everyday!!)

Hugs

Alayne (widow wallowing in the mud!)