Not Ritalin

After I was badly injured in 1998, a doctor (WO) insisted I try Ritalin
(even though I super didn't want to).  [I wanted good testing &
diagnosis of injuries, instead of drugs.],   And the results was
terrible & scary.  

I took a small amount of Ritalin, in Houston while I was waiting for the
bus to come (for the long trip back to East Texas), ... & I ended up
almost unable to move, function, or think, ... which was a dangerous
thing to have happen in the bus station.  

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At that time (Dec. 1998), I was still seeking (& not finding) Emergency
medical care for the injuries I'd gotten from hitting pavement & sliding
in Jan. 1998.

In mid-Dec. 1998, the medical appt I'd had at Baylor Neurology in
Houston with Dr. WO, had gone very badly.  I'd been lied to (again!).  

He wasn't "the best injury specialist in Houston", like the Longview
neurologist RH had said, ... & like Baylor had repeatedly confirmed to
me, over the phone for months.  He was a Parkinson's doctor.  

He refused to work or to refer.  He said he wasn't interested in
injuries, that I shouldn't have been sent to him, & that he refused to
refer.  

He insisted I try Ritalin, even though he was very aware that I'd had
severe adverse reactions to many drugs.  He insisted that Ritalin would
work good for me.  ???  He lied.

He was super-interested in getting paid, for his doing nothing, which is
called "Medical Fraud".  Plus, I had to get a hotel room & stay in
Houston for several days ($$$), ... because no testing had been arranged
like it was supposed to be, & like I'd been repeatedly reassured over
the phone that it would be.  And he insisted I wait, while he thought
about maybe arranging some, even though he didn't want to.  ???

[Sometimes I wonder where the Texas & Louisiana medical schools can find
so many doctors, who are willing to compete so hard to be Dumb & Dumber,
.. & to harm their patients, plus cost them the maximum time & money
possible.]

The testing that was finally arranged, was the ineffective & old EMG/NCV
tests, that can't show most spine & body injuries.  

[Plus, I had to wait about a month for the test results, even though it
was an emergency situation.  Every day of waiting, during that December
& January, was total pain & agony.]  

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Christmas 1998 was the very worst, partly because of the waiting, ...
partly because it was so cold, & I was so injured & frightened (with
ongoing concussion & loss of consciousness), ... partly because I was so
hopeful that some test would show something (because I was investing
everything I had in this, over & over, & I kept having nothing left),
.. & I was so hopeful this time, that I would finally get some
much-needed medical explanations, some basic medical care, & some care
for injuries, but I didn't, ... & partly because I got snake-bit when it
warmed up one day that December.  

[I do intend to put those doctors (WO & RH, as well as other doctors) in
prison one day, for the harm they've done, for the suffering they cause,
& for their obvious enjoyment of it.  I've repeatedly promised myself
that.]

Now every Christmas is a horrible reminder, that I have no enforceable
legal rights, have been deliberately & seriously harmed/injured, am
still in the cold, am still in poverty & hardship, am still being abused
& harmed, ...

Every year, Christmas is a measuring point, of how far I haven't come
yet, because of the very failed systems (govt, legal, medical) here in
Texas & Louisiana.  

I stop often to pray for justice without mercy, for those people who
choose to do harm.  And I scream out loud, because of the pain &
suffering they've chosen to cause me, & because it hurts so much.

By next year, I will have Christmas!  I will force this failed &
chicken-sh*t system in Texas to work, no matter what it takes.

I refuse to give up hope, & I will keep trying.

Even if I don't get to have or live a life (that is, if the cancer &
injuries, the lack of medical care, the ongoing abuse & hardship, do
kill me), ... I intend that no one else should have to suffer this
badly, in this way.  

I intend that other people have the knowledge, savvy, & skills
necessary, to live a better life.  

I'm trying to pass on any knowledge & information I have, & life
experniece.

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After taking the Ritalin, I collapsed onto the floor.  I remember
staring at a clock.  I was terrified & wondering what had happened to
me. In other words, I had an adverse reaction to the Ritalin, & would
never consider taking it again.

I have adverse reactions to most drugs like that, including
antidepressants, most tranquilizers (I can take Tranxene, but would
rather not), pain killers, blood pressure meds, muscle relaxers, etc.

It can take me weeks or months to start to recover some, from trying a
new medicine & having a bad reaction to it, ... so for the most part,
I'd rather not try them, especially when I feel this sick & weak from
Femara.

Adverse drug reactions are very serious things, which can kill, ... even
though most doctors here treat them like a joke, & refuse to take them
seriously.

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I wish there were some tests, to determine which drugs would work for
us, ... so we wouldn't have to buy & try so many bad ones, get so sick
from them, etc.

If there were such tests (DNA maybe?), then the doctor could prescribe
the right meds, that would be sure to work the first time, without many
if any serious side effects.  

Hmmm.  That would mean no endless round of expensive, time &
resource-consuming doctor visits (in cities & clinics far away).  

No more endless streams of clueless doctors, who don't seem to know
anything, & can't get anything right.  

Wouldn't that be nice?  

And we could live much healthier lives.  Get more done.  Plus save a lot
of time & money.  

The govt could save a lot of money this way.

Susan, Su_Texas  my opinions