Dear J
I used to come here for my mother.
check the other group.

I went to see her last time, her funeral was on Friday noon.
I saw her face, she was smiling, her face was not blank but filled
with happy expressions.
There was this amazing dignity around her, I cant explain that
feeling.
When I saw her, I thought she had so much to tell me.
Her face was telling me that she won! She is winner... I cant explain
what i saw on her face, it was like her closed eyes were looking at
something very special. She was more than smiling, her shinning front
teeth were showing.

I want to call her, I want to talk to her, I want to know what
happened, but I have to be like her to be with her.
I was taking her for granted for years, she was my support, my friend,
my sister, my leader and my mentor.
She taught me how to live this life to achieve the eternal pleasure.

I am praying tha may my life will be like her.
I wish that I will have some characteristics of hers, I am trying.
She is constantly in my mind, and in the mind of so many other people.
The one amazing quality she had was that every one thinks that she
love him/her more than others :)
And she very uniquely loved every one.
She told me last thursday : "you can invite people to the truth in
health and in sickness too."
And I found that her good deeds were more meaningful while she was
sick.
We all were very much inspired by her sincerity to others.
The way she used to feel for others was very important.
Whenever she was asked by this question: How are you doing? Her answer
was always," I am thankful to God in all the conditions" and thats it,
nothing about the nausea and vomiting, nothing about the sleepless
night, nothing about how she was spending her nights sitting since
months, nothing about the horrible pain.
She never told others except for very few that what is going on
inside her. How much pain is there.

By looking at her, every one start loving God, she never complain
about this unfortunate disease, she was the most submissive. There are
so many things to tell about her.

She saturate my life and life of others, in such a beautiful way, that
she will always be with us. Her body might not be present with us, but
she will always always be here.

I want the whole world to know about her,specially the people here,
who are suffering. You can make a impact on others, by being strong,
being thankful, being sincere.

May God heal the soul and body of all of us, as the diseases of soul
are much more harmful than the body.

Take care,