God love her, Diane, and you and your family. This is so hard.
---
Joan

Diane, prayers already started that your mom will have a painless and
peaceful passing.  Also praying for you and the rest of the family as you go
through this with her.  Hope you can get to be pain free during all of this.
Gwen

DianeW,                                                       So sorry
about your mom,I know just what you're going through.I lost my mom in
May of last year,your story sounds so similar.I cried when I read
it,brought back alot of memories.My mom had aspirated pneumonia,and her
kidneys had shut down.I certainly will pray for your mom,you,and your
family.My  husband also had compressed fractures of his spine some years
ago and it's not fun.            Take care and God Bless...Carol

(((((((((((((((((((((dianew and family))))))))))))))))))))))   my heart goes
out to all of you and my prayers for all of you.
lovingly,
kate

I know I haven't been posting much since my hospital and for this I
apologize but I had a bad reaction to the last IV abx they gave me and
had horrific muscle spasms which left me with 2 compression fractures
in the mid back area. Very painful. I didn't sleep for 4 days and then
was given a serious muscle relaxer and slept for two weeks until the
worst of the pain is gone. Hasn't been a fun time. I'm getting around
better now with a corset type brace and the pain is finally
controllable with my normal meds.

But now I need your prayers for Mom's gentle passing. She's been in the
CCU at the hospital now with Sepsis and pneumonia since last Thursday.
It's her second hospitalization this month. Her kidneys have failed.
She hasn't had any urine output since yesterday. Her PT/INR is
elevating in spite of being off coumadin for 4 days now and she has a
GI bleed. She's sleeping most of the time now only occasionally opening
her eyes but not making eye contact with anyone in the room or
following the sound of our voices. The infectious disease doctor says
that less than 5% of patients survive Sepsis when the "cascade" of the
disease process as it's called starts and is this pronounced. She is
not expected to survive more than 5-7 days but as the family doctor
says  - she's a fighter, she's  fooled us before.

When I went in to see her yesterday it was obvious by the grimace on
her face that she was in pain and having a hard time breathing with her
pulmonary fibrosis and the pneumonia on top of that.  The nurse had
already called the doctor and was waiting for a reply. They started her
on morphine when he called back. So she's much more comfortable. We
were able to talk with her yesterday and she shook her head yes and no
to our questions. And she softly said I love you back to us when we
said it to her. She fell asleep sometime later in the evening and
hasn't really woken up since. Of course, the nurses give her the
morphine when she's showing signs of pain or when her bp starts to
elevate which but never more than every 4 hours. I'm sure that's part
of why she's sleeping so much but then the kidney's shutting down is
also contributing to that as well.

Well I could go on with the for hours but I'm going to try and get some
sleep. My brother and husband have been with me at the hospital as well
as my Mom's sister, my favorite aunt. My sister is arriving tomorrow
evening as well. Starting tomorrow we are going to go in shifts so that
someone is always there with her and if she does open her eyes and can
make contact with us, then someone is there for her that is familiar.
She was very fearful when we left her yesterday and that worries me.
Anyway, thank you in advance for the ASA prayer machine. It's alway
done wonders in the past and I know that it will now too.  I just want
her to be at peace. She's been ill for so so long. Cyberhugs, DianeW

{{{{{{{{{{{{DianeW and her whole family}}}}}}}}}}}}

Prayers for you, your mom and your family. May you help one another through
this very difficult time.

May your Mom be blessed with an easy passing. And may your family be
strengthened by the love you share!

Adelle

P.S. - My Dad passed away from kidney failure (resulting from multiple
myeloma, a bone marrow cancer). The hospice people told us that as a way to
go, kidney failure is a very peaceful end. They just go to sleep and don't
wake up. After years of pain from the bone cancer, a quiet ending was a
merciful blessing.

Hi Diane,

My Mom also had sepsis at the end. She was also a fighter, even though
she had signed a living will and made it clear to me that she did not
want to be kept alive by artificial means.  When the time came, I did
what was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.  I told her it was OK
for her to go. I told her that when she saw her Mom and Dad she had to
go with them, and that they would take her to the other side. I told her
to go into the light.  A few hours later she passed very peacefully.
One of the nurses was tending to another patient in the room as I told
my Mom the above and when she saw me in the hall a little later, she
told me that what I did was the most loving thing I could have done. She
said that often patients need "permission" to go and I gave her that.

I will keep your family and your Mom in my prayers, and I know that God
will give you the strength to help your Mom at this time.

HUGS,
Carole

Comfort, peace and strength to you and your mom.
(((Diane)))

Prayers for strength and acceptance and love for you and your family.

I have a deal with my older daughter.  When I reach that valley promise me
enough morphine and I promise to stop breathing.

Talk to her as much as you can.  You don't know what she can hear and how it
will weave into her dreams.  (I have very vivid dreams on morphine).  And
let her know how much you love her and will miss her, but that it is OK for
her to let go.  That it is now not the time to keep fighting.

Love and hugs to you all

You and yours are in my prayers today.   I also pray that the Lord will help
you to rest and that your sleep will refresh you and give you strength to do
what has to be done at this time.
Harv

Prayers for peace for your Mom, and strength for you Diane, and the
rest of your family.

Bonnie

dinae,
you've been through so much! i'm sending prayers for your mom and you
and the whole family. how wonderful to have people she loves around her
as she slips away.

diane

((((((((((((Diane))))))))))))

prayers for your mom.  also prayers for you and your family.

Diane,
Soft and gentle hugs. Prayers that your Mom will be comfortable and at
peace.
Sending a Pair of Angel Wings to help lift you through this difficult time.
I know your heart must be aching so watching your Mom in so much distress.
Torn between wanting her here and hoping she doesn't suffer any longer than
necessary has to be a huge battle...Praying that you will find comfort in
God's choice and that he will hold you close. Also praying for you and your
health. It must really be hard to take care of your own needs at a time like
this. You have already been through so much...
Hugs Cindy

Sending Good Thoughts,
{{{{DianeW, Mom & family}}}}

GramPaHugs,
Alex,

Diane,
I knew you were having trouble but this wasn't one I had imagined.  I know
that feeling of wanting someone to be a peace at the end.  I will be praying
for her and for you as well.  Please take care of yourself as well - it will
be a bit of a roller coaster ride for a bit.

Kelly

Diane,

You and your family are in my prayers.  I read all of the posts and the
one that hit home was Carole's.

My mother also had aspirated pnuemonia and she lived for seven days in
the ICU.  It was hard to watch her.

I did the same thing as Carole and told her how much I appreciated all
she did for us and that it was OK to pass over to the other side now.

There were tears rolling down her cheeks so I know she heard me.  Maybe
you can do this with your mother and give her permission to go if she
needs to.

debbie m

{{{{{{{{{{{{DianeW, her mom and family}}}}}}}}}}

Prayers on the way tonight, Sweetie. Enough already, it's time for your
sweet mom to
get some true relief.

DeeTee

Thoughts and prayers for you all!!

prayers coming for you and your mom
janice