Mid-morning I got a call from the other RD my GP refered me too.  She wasn't
going to
take on anymore new patients but the nurse said my GP pushed the RD... she
said, my
GP said, if anything let me fax her file over and tell me what you think so
I can treat the
patient.  I was flabbergasted!  Well after review of my xrays, mri reports,
my labs and
what the GP had written, the RD agreed to see me and agreed that the GP's
diagnosis
was more then likely correct and which the RD will be seeing me for
treatment of "AS
and RA in my hands/wrist and knees"

I guess my GP just kinda cut through all the red-tape -- she knows how
miserable I am
and swore she'd do what needed to be done.  Guess she lived up to her end of
the deal.
Hell I didn't even know that was legal.

Now, only downfall the RD's nurse said for me to stay on my wonderful drug
cocktail
till my appt with them, to run more blood work to see which will work better
between
remicade and enbrel.  Said, they need to make sure my liver is fine and
blood count.

Now, I have a question... I have some horrible gas going on these days.  My
stomach
feels like it's in knots and I've a stomachache most the day, then at night
if I eat or not
seems like I'm burping every 20mins.  Tastes like my stomach is toxic! I'm
on 30mg of
Prevacid now.  Anything else you can recommend to help coat my stomach?

btw, I try to stay away from milk, another one of my nice autoimmune
problems is i'm
a type 1 diabetic and I'm really struggling right now with keeping my
glucose in order
from all the pain triggering it higher then the steriod injections zooming
it upwards for
3-4 days after then playing hell for another 2 weeks to get me back into
order again..
though it's been great, lol I've lost 14lbs not that I needed it to start
with.  stupid me kept
forgetting to change my basal profile and was running without enough
insulin, so started
dumping ketones... I can usually tell, my head feels like its goign to
explode -- doc told
me was from lack of insulin, and dehydration -- brain is starved, gawd!
isn't life grand.

here I'd like to find a cliff to drive off of to end my pain, when in
reality, killing myself is
a 24-48hr ordeal and no one would be the wiser till i'm gone... simply
suspend my pump.
unforuntately, I only want to die for a few hours to get a bit of relief..
I'm not out to kill myself
forever.. does anyone else feel that way? or am I the only nutcase?

thanks again for all your help guys.. I don't really know any of you, but
rest assured I am
reading and getting to know you all little by little and I'm praying for all
of you.  Not sure
if this will help anyone or not, but how I keep myself going daily is to
remember my mom
once told me... "I used to complain about having holes in my shoes, until I
met a man who
had no feet"  -- moral? just remember no matter how badly we think we hurt
and cannot see
the light at the end of the tunnel, there is always someone out there worse
off then yourself.

<<< hugs to all >>>

Reisa