Dear Gigi,

I hear you with my heartstrings.  I too miss a mother that I never
met.  She died when I was just nine monthes.  I also am about to go on
vacation to see loved ones.  So, I know just how you're feeling this
morning.

((((((((((((gigi))))))))))))))))

Vickie B.

 Dear group,

 Today must be the Day I feel sorry foe me, I hate that, I need to share my thoughts, crazy ones, some too personal that I will not mention, but have contribute to the way I am now as a person.
 Something very strange, Lately I have been missing my Mom, she passed away 3 years ago in France, I miss a woman who did not raised me, who when I was 6 months old, drop me with a neighbor and run away, later on ,my Grand-Mother was able to get me and take care of me, she was a great woman, very poor, no education at all, but a heart of gold, she make me feel wanted, loved, and a funny thing, she never told me * I love you* no need for that, I knew and it was enough for me, so coming back to my Mom, a neighbor of hers called me and told me she had passed, two Days later I was in France to tell her good bye and wept for hours, days, and still now try to understand why a Mom would leave her only child, but I have forgive her long time ago, you have to forgive to be able to go on.
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 You have learned one of lifes lessons that many people never learn.  The pain you have learned to live with never really goes completely go away.   It does put calluses on our soul and it does help us to deal with what life hands us in our everyday life in other ways.   Thank you for sharing a very personal pain and you make us stronger in the doing.
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 I am crazy to tell you all that, but I have a feeling that  when reading a posting you really care, all of you, I am not looking for sympathy, just need to write, maybe I should start my own journal, it would make me feel better.
 Two more Days and I will be flying to see my Daughter and Grand -Daughter, for 14 Days, it wont be easy to travel with the pain, but I can see their smiles when I get there and I know that its worth it, I need to see them before I get my surgery, they are unable to come here, my Daughter who will be 31 tomorrow, has been struggling with Ulcerative Colitis since she was 18 years old, she had the surgery done in France, removal of all her colon including  rectum, at first she had a bag, but after a second surgery they were able to attach an artificial rectum to a small part of the intestine left for that purpose, I was there for both of  her surgery, it was tough for her, and she did great, but now after 2 years, still have problems, and it drives me nuts to see her like that and wish I could do something.
 Its early in the morning, and a good time for coffee and confessions, I know that I am a pain in the a.s, can I says that?
 I will stop now, there is so much more, but enough.
 Thinking of you all, wishing you a Day with no pain or less pain.

 Big hugs to all of you,

 Gigi.
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 Know that we will be there with you as you go through what needs to be done.   Please keep us up to date as things take place.   It may give someone else the courage to do what needs to be done in their life.
 Harv
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Missing my mom here too and my dad, both have passed.  A big hug to you.
As for your wanting to write, have you ever thought of creating a blog?
(An online Journal.)
A lot of people have them.  I am considering making one myself.  Anyhow.
I think you are among friends here, at least I feel as though I am, so
we will listen anytime you need us too.
Happy Easter,
Ellie

Gigi, Just a hug and a prayer...
You must be very worried for your daughter, but she does know that she is
loved and how much you care...
Sometimes we have to let the pain wash over us and let the tears fall.
Then we can start to feel better.
I lost my Dad 3 years ago and I miss him dearly...but if I look hard enough
I can see him...In my children's smiles, In the song of his favorite bird,
when I am doing something he taught me...
I know that not having those memories are hard for you...but being able to
forgive your mother...that is a huge step to healing.
Know that you are in my prayers and I hope that your visit with your family
will lift your spirits.
Cindy

Dear group,

Today must be the Day I feel sorry foe me, I hate that, I need to share my
thoughts, crazy ones, some too personal that I will not mention, but have
contribute to the way I am now as a person.
Something very strange, Lately I have been missing my Mom, she passed away 3
years ago in France, I miss a woman who did not raised me, who when I was 6
months old, drop me with a neighbor and run away, later on ,my Grand-Mother
was able to get me and take care of me, she was a great woman, very poor, no
education at all, but a heart of gold, she make me feel wanted, loved, and a
funny thing, she never told me * I love you* no need for that, I knew and it
was enough for me, so coming back to my Mom, a neighbor of hers called me
and told me she had passed, two Days later I was in France to tell her good
bye and wept for hours, days, and still now try to understand why a Mom
would leave her only child, but I have forgive her long time ago, you have
to forgive to be able to go on.
I am crazy to tell you all that, but I have a feeling that  when reading a
posting you really care, all of you, I am not looking for sympathy, just
need to write, maybe I should start my own journal, it would make me feel
better.
Two more Days and I will be flying to see my Daughter and Grand -Daughter,
for 14 Days, it wont be easy to travel with the pain, but I can see their
smiles when I get there and I know that its worth it, I need to see them
before I get my surgery, they are unable to come here, my Daughter who will
be 31 tomorrow, has been struggling with Ulcerative Colitis since she was 18
years old, she had the surgery done in France, removal of all her colon
including  rectum, at first she had a bag, but after a second surgery they
were able to attach an artificial rectum to a small part of the intestine
left for that purpose, I was there for both of  her surgery, it was tough
for her, and she did great, but now after 2 years, still have problems, and
it drives me nuts to see her like that and wish I could do something.
Its early in the morning, and a good time for coffee and confessions, I know
that I am a pain in the a.s, can I says that?
I will stop now, there is so much more, but enough.
Thinking of you all, wishing you a Day with no pain or less pain.

Big hugs to all of you,

Gigi.