For those who remember my problems I had finally made it clear to my
husband's doctors that I could not have him at home full time and they
had agreed to try and find him somewhere to live where he could have
the stimulation and supervision he needed.

Well they told us both last week that he had a room in a local
community type house not far from our home. It is run by the Catholic
Church and they have about 16 people living there, some with mental
illness, some with other problems but they would provide him all meals
and supervision and we were looking at what was available in the
community to help keep him active and occupied.

I even took him home both days last weekend as after he treated me
badly I told him how I felt and he seemed to make a big effort to be
polite and agreeable.

It looked like this would work out well as I had assured him that I was
not going to abandon him and as this place was close to home he would
still come home on the weekends and be part of the family. He seemed
quite happy with the situation.

Only someone gave the room promised to him away to another needy person
and we are back to square one. They have no idea when another room will
be available so he is still in the psych hospital and feeling very
upset that he is still there.

I have this horrible feeling that they are trying to force my hand to
bring him home and I know I can't do that for although he seems fine
most of the time I know he should not be left alone at home all day
while I am at work.

Tonight when I went to see him he barely spoke to me, spent a lot of
the time with his eyes closed and when they called him to get his meds
I left as it was obvious he was not happy and I cannot blame him, but
there is little I can do as they refuse to place him in a nursing home
because he is only 56 and they are also worried as he has been
agressive in the past. They say he is too well for a home at this
point.

I wish I knew what to do, I just want what is best for him and to know
he is safe so that I can work in peace.

Anyway just thought I would show my face here, so to speak.
Liz