> Re: Long Night & Day
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Ronny:
Thank you Barb. :-)
Things are getting somewhat back to normal now. I did get real upset
over one thing yesterday. I had to take apart our blender and soak it in
bleach water in the kitchen sink. Told Mom to keep her hands out of that
water;but soon noticed she was in it and had most of the blender in the
dish drainer. Hurried to get her hands and arms washed off as her skin
can be so sensitive to things like bleach! Well,that one was my fault
and I'm going to have to change my ways on how I do things like this
cause I can't expect Mom to remember why she shouldn't put her hands and
arms in things like bleach water. [It can make me mad that I have to
change my ways on doing something like soaking something in the sink in
bleach water-have to watch that close to make sure Mom stays out of
it;but then I realize it's silly of me to get mad over such a minor
thing and such a minor thing to change my ways about.] (ha)
Have also been getting stressed out lately over some people online in
one group doing things to tear up that group,being childish,etc and that
in one of the main groups I post in online and where I have posted for a
good while and know and like a number of people. Hope that works out
soon and for the better.
Did get 49 guinea eggs over to my neighbors and in her incubator the
other day! :-) Glad of that and got a good look at her cabinet type
incubator that holds 360 hen eggs! It's not that big either, probably
less than 3x3x3 foot overall. And I'm thinking lately that I can build
one like that or something similar. So have been looking up more plans
online for that.
Have also been enjoying the spring wildflowers we have around here. :-)
Mean to post a few pic links to some of those as I did last night on
someother discussion groups.
It's been daylight out for a little bit now. Have to check in a bit to
see how warm or chilly it is out? Has been rather chilly here lately in
the mornings! LoL But warming up later and some beautiful spring
days.:-) Want and need to get out a bit and do somethings.
My cousin,from home health care,should be here in 5 to 6 hours. She has
an extra 3 hours to do this week from one day she missed last week.
Didn't much care for that last week; :-) but then it will make it nicer
for me in some ways this week! LoL
Got our yard mowed last Friday & Saturday and now need to carry off and
empty our burning barrel to the junkpile at the back of our place and
pick up and carry off a bit more junk/trash out of the yard. Have mostly
got that part done this spring and will be glad to have it all done!
Will make me feel better just to have the yard completely picked up and
cleaned up! LoL
Better go on for now before your ears fall off from reading all I can
write! :-) Or is that your eyeballs fall out form that?! LoL
Ronny
Dear Ronny,
I never get tired of reading your posts..... you have an approach to life
that seems very basic and almost zen like. Something about doing the next
thing, "chop-wood and carry water" approach. That is a zen saying, and it
refers to being mindful of what we do, of paying simple attention to our
every day tasks as a form of spiritual practice.
Yes, you are right about your mom not being able to remember things like not
to touch something soaking in bleach. You will discover as we did, that
tendency increases over time, and she will require more and more direct
supervision. Ida destroyed a couple of things early in the game when we
weren't really understanding of the fact that she needed more watching.
Her judgements were gone on what was appropriate for this or that task, and
she made more messes than she fixed.
She just wanted to help, to feel useful, to feel like a productive member of
the household, and her brainpower was just not up to the task. If we let
her do the dishes, she wanted to put them away too, and they were still
dirty and she'd put them in all the wrong places. You'd be looking for
something and it would be all filthy and in the wrong place. Little
things like that can be very frustrating.
Finally we just had to stop her from "helping" voluntarily, and instead we'd
just ask for her help in certain areas at times when we could watch, and she
couldn't do any real damage. I would deliberately try to give her such
tasks to keep her feeling useful.

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Evelyn
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Ronny TX - 03 May 2005 04:48 GMT
> Dear Ronny,
> I never get tired of reading your
> posts.....
Ronny:
Thank you. :-)
> Evelyn:
> you have an approach to life
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> day tasks as a form of spiritual
> practice.
Ronny:
I'm not doing so good on some of that right now though! (ha) But things
should improve by and by. One little frustation that I now have and that
I know I can do nothing about,is our present weather just being too
cool! LoL Bugs me as I want it to warm up and stay warmed up as a proper
NE Texas spring should be doing by this time of year! LoL But no,today
the wind was again out of the north and I've had the heater on tonight
to get the chill out of the house! So very unusual weather we're having
here for this time of year.
> Evelyn:
> Yes, you are right about your mom not
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> this or that task, and she made more
> messes than she fixed.
Ronny:
Another problem with Mom was she has always been pretty stubborn if she
wanted to do something and someone told her she shouldn't. :-) But then
I can't gripe about that a lot,since I am much the same way! LoL If I
really get it in my head to do something,then I'm pretty sure to do it ,
one way or the other,no matter what. :-)
> Evelyn:
> She just wanted to help, to feel useful,
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> place. Little things like that can be
> very frustrating.
Ronny:
Ah,there you have hit upon a big one-a person's desire to help and be
useful and productive. I know Mom wants to do/be all of that and I now
see it as my job to let her as long as what she's doing is safe for her
and not too destuctive at times. :-) In the last 2 to 3 weeks she's been
washing dishes no matter how few were in the sink. Not a big deal to me
that she puts up most of them damp; (ha) but it did bother me that some
of them weren't exactly clean. :-) Now though,if I see something isn't,I
just pop it back in the sink.
One frustating thing on this is the lady coming 4 days a week. Mostly I
have let her do the dishwashing. OK,I don't hate dishwashing;but I'm not
that fond of it :-) and I can always think of something better to do and
that I rather be doing! LoL But in the last 3 weeks Mom has left her
little if anything to wash! And yeah,I could do them before Mom gets to
them;but then that defeats part of the purpose of my cousin coming to
stay with Mom and do some housecleaning while here. Problems,problems!
LoL And I'm almost set on the idea of finding someplace to hide a few
dirty dishes so Mom wan't wash them and then show my cousin where they
are when she gets here! :-)LoL
> Evelyn:
> Finally we just had to stop her from
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> deliberately try to give her such tasks
> to keep her feeling useful.
Ronny:
Lately I've noticed Mom doing more floor sweeping and that I don't mind
a bit. I know she feels useful doing that and she is being useful. But
if I suggested Mom might want or need to sweep the floors, then she
might very well tell me I could do it myself thank you! LoL So on things
like that I find it best to let her come up with the idea; :-) but I
have a notion to put a hanger in the kitchen maybe and hang the broom up
in plain sight. That just might work. :-)
Me,I really need to get on that old bedroom right off of our kitchen.
Have a big freezer in there that we aren't using right now,a large flat
table that I do use and have recently at least partly cleaned off :-)
and a big old hide-a-bed couch and stuffed chair that both need to go!
Hope to get those out while Mom isn't watching!LoL And that will free up
a lot of room in there so I can better use that room as I have planned
to use it. :-)
Better go for now. :-)
Ronny