Hi All

Not been here for a while, had so many things to sort out i forgot all about
it!

Anyway hes doing well, i havent noticed anything differant in him, i
actually foned me real dad, his son and said we ought to bury the hatchet
for the sake of my granddad and do things as a family, as that never
happened before as it was my grandparents who raised me, he said he had
picked up on a couple of things he noticed with my granddad, i hadnt or at
least to cause me concern but then i see my granddad more than he sees him.
All 3 of us was in one room without a crossed word and it was years ago
since that last happend and cant remember when.

Granddad had the dog overnight last week, so both got exersise and a nice
time, im over again tomorrow and come the better weather i can take my
granddad out for day trips.

Things havent been so good for me, i split a couple of months ago with a
girl i was with for 2.5 years, she lied, selfish, nasty etc and it came to
the end where for well over a year she would tell her ex to move out, which
she never did and kept putting the date back, as at xmas she said she  would
tell him to leave her house by feb and if she didnt do that i could go and
tell him all about me and so he would know the truth, anyway that date came
and she said she would tell him by the summer and not feb, so i went to the
house and told him straight, ok he was at the top of the staircase and darnt
come down to face me, so that put a end to me and my GF. I tried apologising
etc but she wouldnt listen or speak to me.

A month ago i met a girl, way younger than me at 23.  Shes German and we got
on like a house on fire, within the first couple of weeks i laughed with her
more than in the whole 2 years with the other girl, she makes me happy,
likes me, accepts me for what i am, doesnt lie etc and even treats the dog
ok. Shes actually wants to go places with me, let me take her out for trips,
or something as simple like a quick meal at a cheap cafe which my ex never
let me do.
My ex saw us together and then got in touch, so for the past few weeks my
head as been going crazy, i still love my mex but everyone says after the
way she treat me i should move on and stick with the new girl who evryone
who has met her says is wonderful and very beutiful, so why the hell shes
with a old cripple like me i will never know!  I remember when i wa first
going to bring her home for the first time i had to ask for some advice as i
have my great granddads WW1 medals on my fireplace that he got for special
missions and killed Germans, she was fine about it.

This new girl is so nice, shes  a student here for several months, everyone
says i should ask her to stay which i know she wants as shes from E Germany
and not much work, shes smart and doing top end business finance etc.

People even said while i was with the ex gf she was bad news and i should
have got out but thats not what my heart says. My granddad has met her twice
and shes polite and respectable where as i think my ex met my grandddad 3
times in 2 years.

Aint love a funny thing, its not as if im a teenager and my first love but
my head and heart say differant things, i think i would take my ex back like
a shot, shes been nice to me in the past couple of weeks when we have
spoken, but then everyone i asked said she would soon go back to being nasty
again or just trying to get me to split with this new girl. I dont think i
have feelings for this new girl, i care for her but thats it, im sure within
a month of being with her, esp as shes so nice to me i should be feeling
more, but i dont......or cant?

This new girl can sense something is going on, but i put it down to stresses
around the house etc. I have been rushed off with my animal rescue and
recycling pc stuff which i think she belives when say its that.

Anyway hope everyone is ok, i got a bit carried away with all this, i only
meant to mention my granddad.........oops. I joked with him last week if he
wanted me to move in with him, he said no chanec as he was enjoying himself
too much and loved his freedom, he still has his humour and not bad for 80
in a few months. He did remember to fix my car radiator at the 2nd time of
asking, i havent noticed any agression or him getting upset with himself due
to his memory and although he forgets what day it is, he can remember what
days he goes to the memory clinic and is still clean and smart, im trying to
enjoy time with him as much as i can, so i hope spring and nice weather
comes early this year.

ta!