Dear Friends,

I think the last time I wrote I told you that John had been switched
back to 10mg of namenda as the 10 twice a day was too much---

In my opinion, the namenda probably made John worse in the long run
because he once again became really aware of what has been happening
to him.  He decided almost two weeks ago to quit all of his meds.
Been there, done that.  The old-timers will remember me writing about
sneaking meds into his food or drinks when we lived  in PR.  This time
I have decided to just do what Frederick did with June ----let it go &
let everything run its course.

I can see him getting worse but he did tell me today that this is what
he wants----he loves me &  he gave me a big hug.  This meant a lot to
me because I was beginning to think he was  really angry with me &
just taking frustaration out on me.  I know now what I really knew all
along: it is the disease when he gets "snappy"  but it still hurts.

I have found a local AD support group & will go to my first meeting
next week.  They can't possibly be better than this group but I will
be out of the house & talking to others.

Always,

Char