THE FEAR OF LOSING HIV

By Bob Findle

What? Is that headline a typo? Shouldn’t it be "Fear of Getting HIV?" No.
We do not need another article about the fear of getting HIV. We
understand that fear. It has been skillfully and unrelentingly marketed to
us by the HIV/AIDS industry until HIV=AIDS=DEATH is accepted without
question, without proof, and obvious contradictions brushed aside without
regard.

But what is this fear of losing HIV? Before I start, I should explain what
losing HIV would be. The end of AIDS can only begin by losing HIV from the
equation. All HIV treatments, cures and hysteria have to go. HIV is a dead
end. False representations and promotion of HIV have to stop. The AIDS
defining diseases must be unlinked and treated as the separate conditions
they are. The solution for AIDS will happen when the real (not HIV)
multi-factorial causes of immune suppression are allowed to be addressed.
Losing HIV would mean seeing that we believe in HIV because that is all we
have been taught to believe in, all we are presented with and allowed to
see.

Being vocal about my HIV disbelief gives me an opportunity to observe the
community’s response to anti-HIV information. Often the emotion is fear
being displayed as anger, sarcasm, utter incomprehension, nervousness,
etc. I questioned this, not understanding why information clearly showing
that HIV is not causing AIDS and that AIDS is nothing more than a medical
construct would be feared. Shouldn’t this be good news? Or at least
information to be considered? I have come to realize that one of the
reasons HIV is still with us as a valid theory, when it should have been
dumped a long time ago, is that people fear questioning HIV, fear losing
it, and fear even hearing a single word against it. I have come to see
just how powerful the HIV mindset is. What does it mean if HIV is taken
away? The obvious loss is that there would no longer be a viral theory to
blame AIDS on. This causes fear in people because it brings out the
question of lifestyle factors. For example, people do not want the very
obvious link between drugs and AIDS to be promoted. People fear that if
HIV is taken away, AIDS may be seen as being only a gay problem (which it
is not) and there will be no more research, concern, or interest. The
HIV/AIDS gurus fear their anti-virals, prescription drugs, or other HIV
procedures being identified as immune suppressive, life destroying, and
causing, not stopping AIDS conditions.

But the fear goes much deeper. Look at gay media. HIV/AIDS has become the
major defining piece of our consciousness. Everything is HIV/AIDS industry
advertisements, services and support, HIV/AIDS news, HIV/AIDS art,
entertainment, fund-raisers and social events. This deluge can not be
blamed totally on the media producers since they can only give their
audience what that audience believes in. Is it any wonder why average
Americans can not see gay men as a separate entity from HIV/AIDS? We
surely can not even do it ourselves. HIV/AIDS, overtly or covertly,
underscores everything. It pulls us together, gives us a focus, a cause, a
commonality. The gay community has designed and lives in a total HIV-based
culture, both individually and collectively. To have HIV challenged causes
great anxiety since humans fear and resist any challenge to what is
accepted as reality, even if that reality can be shown as false, which
HIV=AIDS can be. This clinging to an HIV reality/identity goes deep.
Psychologists have noted that they are seeing more and more gay men who
are disturbed by their HIV negative status. These men feel left out and
not quite complete. Is the equation actually GAY=HIV=GAY?

Losing HIV/AIDS would mean experiencing and working through a huge shift
in consciousness. Do we stick with HIV because it is what we are
comfortable with and it is easier than questioning it and looking at what
lies beyond? I believe so. To lose HIV we have to accept some rather
unpalatable realities. We have to see that we placed too much faith in the
medical and scientific communities, trusting them to look out for us,
ultimately to save us. I need to be clear that I am not trying to indict
every person working within the HIV/AIDS structure as having ulterior
motives. While we do have HIV/AIDS specialists and researchers who are
truly incompetents, hiding their mediocrity and mistakes behind HIV,
blaming it and not themselves for people’s sickness and death, we have
many dedicated, competent people in this field who truly believe HIV is
something to be combated and they are giving their all. My issue is with
the policy makers at the CDC, the NIH, pharmaceutical companies,
government agencies, and huge HIV/AIDS organizations who produce the
directives instructing the front-line workers what to believe about AIDS
and what to do. We have to acknowledge that their goals and focus are not
always in our best interest and there are often severe conflicts of
interest stemming from greed and egos. We have to deal with the knowledge
that HIV has never been a mistake. An honest mistake we could understand
for humans make mistakes. But to lose HIV we must comprehend that we were
methodically and purposely deceived and lied to from the very beginning
and every attempt to challenge the deception was systematically squelched
by the people doing the deceiving. This is not an easy realization. Nobody
wants to believe that we could have been so duped, so abused. Just as the
abused child, even when presented with the painful truth of their abuse,
continues to refuse to believe it was Daddy who hurt them, the gay
community must continue to believe in HIV and trust that the HIV/AIDS
industry would never be guilty of harming us. For to believe otherwise
means the next logical conclusion must be arrived at. And there is the
fear. What have we, by our complacency and unquestioning faith, allowed to
happen? The tremendous pain and suffering we as a community have dealt
with all these years can never be measured. People making radical choices
and major changes in their lives due to HIV. Millions upon millions of
dollars bled from us, mainly in support of HIV. Horrific drugs and life
destroying treatments to battle HIV. The ones we loved and cherished dead,
we are told from HIV, when it was actually the treatments. Truly immune
compromised people dead because the real cause of their conditions not
addressed. To see HIV as the mistake it is, to lose HIV, we must see and
somehow manage to accept that all this misery was largely avoidable and
unnecessary.

The HIV/AIDS industry has their own valid fear of losing HIV. They know
that once the HIV debacle is finally exposed, in addition to the loss of
their ill-gotten fame and fortune, they will have to face the tidal wave
of anger and rage from the people whose lives have been destroyed. They
know they have to keep HIV going at any cost. And they succeed since they
control the research, the protocols, the funding.

They have the money and positions to promote whatever they want regardless
of truth. they succeed because we give them total control to do so. But
they are starting to lose this control. More scientists and doctors are
overcoming their own personal fears of being criticized for daring to
speak against HIV. The media is slowly letting us see the dissentient
movement. More groups are forming to combat the HIV misinformation
machines.

I can understand why there is a fear of losing HIV. The aftermath will not
be easy on any level for anyone. But we must not let this fear stop us
from really looking at what is happening. HIV=AIDS will never be proven
and the real evidence shows it should be rejected. The hunt for an HIV
cure is a gold mine for the HIV/AIDS industry but a waste of our time,
money and lives. To let HIV=AIDS stand without challenge we collectively
agree to condemn hundreds of thousands, if not millions, to death. We have
to confront our fears, acknowledge the slaughter of the HIV years, and
move forward to stop any more HIV genocide. WE have to march on
Washington, protest, demand change, free ourselves from HIV, not ask for
more of the same. Open your minds people, risk facing your fears, let HIV
go, see that the answers to AIDS are already here.