Bogus?!
Now I feel stupid for answering him.
-Rich

I'd hazzard a guess that it's a self description.

(This is TOT under a new alias...)

Find, don't believe me!  I swear every word is true and I don't know why
you think I'd be making it up.  Perhaps you think I am some f.cked-up
anti-drug crusader, the sort who tells tales of teenagers axing their
parents to death after smoking marihuana cigarettes.  If you must know,
I used to be a HARDCORE druggie, and still am, though my current
geographical location (Buttfuck, Texas) seems to have a shortage of any
good drugs except DXM.  I fried my brain with tweek in the mid- to late-
1990s, but managed to quit cold turkey when I moved to Texas.  Then I
went psychotic in 2000, though not nearly as bad as what my brother is
experiencing.  My buddy, who also quit tweek at the SAME time I did,
went psychotic within MONTHS of me in 2000, having to be hospitalized
for over a month.  Both of us were put on the antipsychotic drug
Risperdal and both of us are now relatively "normal."

I still LUV drugs, but am beginning to get a very negative attitude
towards crystal methamphetamine.  I've never seen a drug that f.cks
people up so bad!  I'll be honest and tell y'all that I did snort it
again a few weeks ago, after my brother came home with a baggie.
Although my job as babysitter was to keep him away from it, I figured
he had already bought it and I purchased half from him, probably
rationalizing that at least I was keeping him from taking ALL of the
drug, and at least performing SOME of my duty.  In retrospect, I should
have grabbed it from him and flushed it down the toilet.  After
snorting it I wasn't particularly impressed, it wasn't at all like my
trips of old and I only felt slightly wired, but it sent my brother
over the edge, so far over that the neighbors called the police.

So please explain why you think I am making all of this up?  What
possible motivation might I have, especially as I've explained how I
am not some radical anti-drug crusader?

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"Drugs should be freely distributed.  That way the people who want to
kill themselves will do it, leaving more room for the people who can
do the rest of the drugs."
-- Marilyn Manson
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"Baby Peanut" <baby_p_nut2@yahoo.com> wrote in message...

(This is TOT under a new alias...)

I'm not really enabling him, my parents are.  They are starting to feel
really bad about the tens of thousands of dollars they've dumped on him
over the last few years.  When he tested HIV+ in late 1994 there really
was no effective treatment and my parents figured he only had a year or
two to live and wanted to make them the "best years of his life."  But
the cocktails restored him to near-perfect health and IF he goes back
on them I expect he might live another 20-30 years at least.

He really is incompetent and always has been.  He's not retarded, but
to say he is a bit "slow" is an understatement.  I actually have a
good buddy (bipolar and "slow") who seems to be much more competent
than my brother.  The difference between my buddy and my brother is
that my buddy KNOWS he is dumb and doesn't hesitate to ask for
advice on what he should do, while my brother thinks he is some sort
of nuclear rocket scientist and refuses to listen to anyone else's
advice.  There is no giving advice to my brother - he knows it all
and anyone else's suggestions on what he should do is some sort of
attempt to control his life.  In addition to that, he is a spoiled
brat from hell!  He expects our parents (and now the government) to
throw unlimited amounts of money at him, but balks if they tell him
how he should be spending it.

You are right, we probably should have let him hit rock bottom.  But
we do love him (despite my talking trash about him) and don't want
to see him wind up as one of those crazy homeless people living
under bridges.  He is mentally ill and has AIDS, and likely would be
dead had they not helped him out so many times.

Today's update: my brother appeared before the arraignment judge and
my father explained the situation and showed him the other judge's
involuntary commitment order.  So rather than granting him bail, this
judge ordered him transferred to the mental hospital immediately.
The charges are still unresolved, but my father suspects that the
judge will eventually close the case with the time served in the
mental hospital (30 days minimum), though I expect my brother will
still have to pay for the damage he caused to his neighbor's car
when he attacked it with a vacuum cleaner.  Once he is stabilized,
we're going to try to persuade him to go back on the AIDS cocktail.
I talked to his AIDS doctor last week and he said that getting him
mentally stabilized was the most important thing at the moment, as
there was no point on putting him on the complex cocktail therapy
if he wasn't competent enough to take the pills regularly and on
schedule.  I just hope there is a third combo available to him; he
already quit two different combos, so it will be a miracle if there
is a third set of drugs he can use.

Yes, but that would absolutely ruin the ongoing drama.

B/