Open letter to ACTUP New York

To : ACTUP New York
CC : Everybody else

Friends,

You must  help me. I don’t know what to do anymore. Some days ago I
was hanging around on the Web again, surfing from one site to another.
That’s been my main occupation ever since I decided to stay at home
and lock everybody out in order to be sure that this fu**ing HIV will
never get me by the throat. Internet provides a lot of good information
about diseases, especially about HIV and AIDS. And recently also, of
course, about that go*da**ed H5N1 virus. Well, no birds around my place so
it doesn’t really bother me.

I’ve been reading much about Celia Farber’s ridiculous article
in Harper’s and reading all your debunking articles has been a lot
of fun for me. Really keeps me going, you know. The denialists are really
too silly for words, it’s almost another race of human beings,
don’t you think so ? Well, you might as well leave the human out of
it. Bloody retards, that’s what they are.

What bothers me though, is something I read on www.actupny.org :

There’s a beautiful picture of three men, denier dummy’s of
course, burying their heads in the sand. But the phrase next to it, well,
it’s difficult to say but really, it drives me crazy.

AIDS DENIALISM = SEEING WHAT YOU WANT TO SEE

It must be said that I have read every single article written by you and
your  friends so I hate the guts of the aids dissidents, but how can I get
away with this? Since I have read your definition of AIDS denialism, I am
trying very hard to only see what I don’t want to see but it
doesn’t work. For instance, the movie I didn’t want to see
yesterday, well, I saw it just because I didn’t want to see it. And
now I’m feeling all messed up because I saw the movie because I
wanted to see it because I didn’t want to see it. So in the end I
saw what I wanted to see. Does that mean that I’m an AIDS denier
now?

I can’t decide anymore. I finally read Celia Farber’s article
because I thought that reading the crap myself  would get me out of my
awkward situation, but the opposite happened : I think Celia’s
writing does make a lot of sense. Is that because I see in the article
what I want to see? It’s strange. All of a sudden, I have the
impression that we are suffering a total lack of elementary logic where
the deniers do seem brilliant. Well, maybe that’s also because Celia
really looks very cute on that picture. Maybe I’ll have some more of
the crap. And now I come to think of it: if the deniers were right, I
could go unlock my front door and get some fresh air.

Well, I started my letter asking you for help, but now I’ve written
it all down, I don’t think I need it anymore. I feel kind of silly
all of a sudden. Being locked away from the world and all that. I’m
going to have a closer look at virusmyth.com

Regards,

Jan Spreen